This has been the best experience of my life. I have been forever changed by this program. I now sleep well, eat well, have more stamina in many ways (including mentally), and I have a new confidence about me that I didn't even know existed. 

I feel like I owe steak day a gift cause he saved me again. I am right back at my set point. My doctor says "way to reign it again." I hope that I don't have to do this every week or so. I will be pretty much screwed if that is the case cause I was starving all day even after I ate my steak. 

I am in the zone I guess. I had to walk a shit ton today cause my car is in the shop. After work I walked to the garage and picked it up. Then I had to pick up my son, but I was starving. If you have kids, you know that eating can be tricky so I just grabbed the almond butter and an apple and started slathering away. I was like dizzy hungry so I wasn't paying attention to how much I was eating... it was probably like 4 TBSP. I hope it doesnt' set me over too bad. Also today I didn't have a hard time eating my calories. I ate plenty!

I am getting a little sick of posts like these: Nutrimost: You Can't Cheat Life. Here's why... 

I think that if you have an opinion about something that is fine. I would like to hear more opinions about NutriMost in fact, however, this is an attack piece designed to promote crossfit. I wish people would just promote their stuff without attacking other programs. 

Well we are heading back home today and I kind of drank more than I should have on this trip. But, in my defense, it was my birthday and I drank way less than I would have normally. So I will tighten it up this week, and I am doing a steak day to get me back on track. 

I am not sure why it works but it does. I am right back at my set point. And I really want to test out some foods today. Chocolate is one that I miss and my wife made these dark chocolate peanut butter cups with stevia and bakers chocolate. They taste amazing. I hope that it doesn't give me any triggers.

Overall I feel really good as well. I don't feel burdened by extra weight anymore. Seeing how well the steak day worked gives me a little bit of confidence as well. It will be sad to see alcohol go, but at the same time, it is now obvious that it is one of my triggers. I will have to seriously limit what I drink and how often if I want to keep off the weight.

Calorie Target = 2600

Your Weight Set Point = 178.6

Todays Weight = 178.0

At this point I guess I am doing okay. My doctor said it would be natural to gain a little weight. Honestly I couldn't really eat all of the calories I was supposed to. I think I finished at like 2300 or so. I am excited that I am staying close to my weight set point and that I get to eat a lot of calories. I am thinking that the alcohol may not have been a good idea the last night. I kind of feel like shit. And I drank more than I wanted to. The gig was so much more fun while drunk. :)

1. "I am in control of my self and my body"
2. "My body heals itself naturally and quickly"
3. "My sleep is relaxed and refreshing"

I read these out loud in the mirror everyday for the last month and a half. I may continue to do so since they are exactly what I wanted to achieve during this program. I think I have actually instilled these thoughts and feelings into my core belief system. The power of belief is really quite amazing. It has a biology of it's own. If you are able to whole heartedly believe in yourself you can truly accomplish amazing things.

I was right... I ran out of my drops this morning. So technically this is Day 41. I am super excited. I DID IT! I made it through the hardest part of the program. There are still three days of VLCD, but, I did ~40 days of something that has totally paid off. 

The steak day seemed to help and the ibuprofen didn't seem to hurt. I woke up this morning and felt like a new person and was down a pound from yesterday. 

My weight is heading in the right direction again, though I do have to play tonight. I imagine I will hit another little stall and get back to it by midweek. I don't have a whole lot to report today, other than I sort of have a headache and might try to sleep a little this afternoon. When I get headaches they are practically crippling and they tend to last more than just one day. 

I actually gained a little from yesterday. And honestly I am really losing faith. I am pretty much starving myself at this point and I am not losing any weight. I have already lost of ton of weight so I don't want to seem spoiled, but I'm also really ready to get back to eating regular portion sizes. To get me through these last 10 days or so, I need to remind myself that, as with everything, there are ups and downs.